31 December 2013

人是会长大的

恍然大悟的小怪,砰地拍击前脚,直盯着昌浩瞧。
它觉得昌浩全身的线条都变粗了。从借住这里开始,个子也逐渐拉高了。
『你总不会一直忍着痛吧?』
『也不是一直……』
身体偶尔会像猛然想起来般,到处倾轧作响,把肌肉拉得阵阵闷痛。不过没痛到昏过去的程度,所以他都海能忍,可是很久没像这波这么厉害了。
小怪甩甩尾巴说:
『因为你最近睡得不错,也吃得不错。』
可能是现在比四处逃亡时平静,所以身体想在这段时间尽可能成长吧。
昌浩拉长脸,懊恼地嗝咕着:
『声音从昨天也不太出得来,不知道是不是被萤传染了感冒。』
『哦?』
小怪嗯嗯地点着头,眯起了眼睛。
『这样啊、这样啊,很好、很好。』

总结就是:昌浩要变男人了!天啊!我要怎么办?!怎么办?!这里很多spoiler,所以绵羊,如果你想亲自看他长大的话就不要读哦~
哇,我看着他进步也快八年了,明天进入第九年!
这就是所谓的——

"Can't get over with this thing."
"Fangirling, no calm."
"Can't believe it."
"OMG"
"NO"
"F"

Of course, these are the wonders of puberty (and fangirling). You never know what's coming up next.

这也是我们最后一次看到昌浩稚气的脸……点击图案会看得更清楚……

在日本的粉丝看成熟的他也有一年多了,可是还是缺少了什么啊啊啊!!!
你们知道什么叫"Not enough love for this fandom"吗?!
……
……
……
……
……
我没进展到啊啊啊!!!

27 December 2013

PUBERTY DOES WONDERS

So... they say puberty does wonders, but then of course, that didn't happen to me.
I was checking out the newest volume of Shounen Onmyouji when suddenly these caught my eye.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAA>///////<"Come to be babe."

Images from amazon.jp
I still remember when I would always whine "Why is he still 14?". When the 31st volume came out, puberty started to hit but I was still whining "So slow!". Now that he really grew into a bishie, I can't help but say "Damn, puberty does wonders! Is that really him?"

The stupid thing about me was my reaction.
"OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!" Then I stop, look at him once more, then continue fangirling. Akiko seemed to have matured a bit too. She's not as childlike as before. On the last image, she has this 'woman' vibe on her.

Ahh, Seimei would be so proud of them~

26 December 2013

我到底做了什么?

几天前说要scan东西,可是根本都没做到,所以今天补习之前把它赶完。
呵呵,你看我做了什么?


其实我也scan了《风动鸣》的,只是我只有1-6和19,其它都没了,所以没做。
每本都有touch-up过的,所以不用拿这个跟真的比较。

25 December 2013

Extreme Sadness

You know, there are times when I am just all slightly depressed and stuff.
But I'm not depressed, I can't be. Depression isn't this easy.
I'm more of a... leveled up sadness.
But actually it's no big deal. I get this all the time in school.
Ok, maybe sometimes in the internet too.
Just for that split second you don't feel you're there, and everything goes black.

A sudden thought came up: Wouldn't it be better if I wasn't there?
Or probably: I'm so useless.
Maybe: I'm not worthy.
Sometimes even: I'm just some ugly shit.

In Tumblr I have all these friendly reminders that keep my confidence up, but sometimes it's still no use.
I hate myself. *listens to Sakura Nagashi*

21 December 2013

《我是主角》碎碎念~(3)

名字换成《我是主角》咯。
那位创办人改了角色设定,还加了几位角色。幸好邋遢前座没换,不然我真的要翻桌了。
其实要用电脑画不简单啊。
邋遢前座把刘海往上夹时很帅的叻~~~主角的风头都被前座夺走了!
我看我还是不上色了,好麻烦,加上图片太小了,上色后会显得很烂。
在上图全人角色到,只有主角我还画不出……

打开我的文件夹,发现我有很多东西没完成:
学长死后发生的情节(的第一页)。我画的同时受了很多心理创伤……
猜是谁?谁谁??其实这是太阳叻,很像女的吧……
这个已经将近一年了,颜色都上好了,只欠东风!就差那么一点点就可以把它上载到dA啊!
同一个作品,两种版本。下面是第一版,上面那个是第二版。第二版颜色漂亮点,第一版的线好一点。现在问题是在于怎么“二合一”???
少年啊啊啊!昌浩啊啊啊!彰子啊啊啊!当时是我的错没把你们画好,现在又要画过……

19 December 2013

《11天主角》碎碎念~(2)+漫画~

邻家女孩来咯~~~
我可以死了。样子不是这样的啊啊啊啊!!!
到最后我还是做了。

最近在追些‘名’漫,读了过后突然很想死。
都是Khei Lai害的。我拜一补习后去读《Beelzebub》(两百多篇叻!),没后悔,因为故事笑死人,刚好又不卖肉,正合我意!
三天内追完200+篇,过后开始读《蓝色除魔师》,总觉得华文名字怪怪的(‘青’才是正确的颜色……不是吗?)。幸好才五十多篇,不然去我又要读死我自己咯。
读完后第一个感想:终于有个主角是很会煮饭的!感动!
不过我对做弟弟的(不知道叫什么名)很有意见。
因为我不会用华文讲,所以先转会英文……

I dunno if it's the trend or what, but guys REALLY like to have moles on their faces. I MEAN,
SERIOUSLY
WHAT IS WRONG WITH FICTIONAL GUYS THESE DAYS?!

Note that Clear has two moles beneath his lips, and Yukio...that doesn't need explaining right? Now I'm wondering if there's anyone fictional out there that has TONS of moles on their faces. Seriously.


Because there's no video on Youtube and so I had to seach Soundcloud for the song. Damn.

12 December 2013

《11天主角》碎碎念~(1)

因为快要死了,刚好今天有东西post,就来复活一下吧!
我想不是每个人都认得他是谁吧。他就是《11天主角》的邋遢前座啊啊啊!
发色应该要红一点,可是偏偏就给我看错变成橙褐色啦啦啦!!
脸是圆的(吧?),还有酒窝叻~几可爱又讨人喜欢~(荟涵有福了)
还有很多女生追哦~~~

当然,这些也只是我自己的角色设定,到最后还是要宇玟做主/批准。


21 November 2013

Rambling

Books are my life. When I read, I escape from my worries and insecurities, and dive into the fictional world. I'm lost in the book world until someone (or something) slaps me back into reality (which I hate) and then the 'world' is gone. Gone in a second. I have to rebuild the world again the next time I continue reading, which is frickin annoying.

Then comes dreams. I have this really cool dream in my brain, reaching its climax, then suddenly the alarm goes off and I go from "Hmmm, nice story plot" to "FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU" Then I'll have problems trying to remember every detail that was supposed to be in mah frickin' story!

Then I realized that there are tons of WIPs in my folder and I dunno how to finish them! The Kune piece has been rotting in my folder for God knows how long and now I have a new 4-page script for that one scene OMG I just dunno how to do all of this I'm dying.

FML.

08 November 2013

Afraid

Ahh, the year passes by. I won't be able to relax like this next year.

I've met a lot of new friends this year, and that one night before going to bed I flipped the ole' school mag to look at their photos. I almost laughed to tears. The physical appearance change is so drastic that it makes me wanna laugh. Also, by looking at the class photo I get to know my hairstyle history. I change my hairstyle so frequently sometimes I lose track of it!Today and maybe today, I'll be changing my hairstyle again. (-A-) I was influenced by Heichou Levi. Don't blame me. Just that he is too irresistible! I think next time I'll try Jean's style.

Since next year's SPM, I should be revising, and not sitting in front of screens screaming out of mental agony or faking tears because of feels or laughing at a joke no one understands. I've abandoned my consorts for some time now after i started replaying TotA. The second playthrough made me wanna visit my other concubines again (jes fer shippin' purposes~). Few days ago I saw this beautiful poem in the net:
(Just ignore the fact that you may see losta naked bodies and minor homo stuff)

It's a really nice poem. I've seen Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts versions of this in Tumblr, and I am tempted to do my own. I've done some OC planning the night before, but it's really really hard to put them in the right panel. Grrrr...

03 November 2013

Kinokuniya!

昨天去kinokuniya买《少年阴阳师》,看到我失踪的两位妃子……感动到~
除了妃子还有新的贵妃,就是……
后面那一堆东西时我的白衣。
呵呵,我儿时的OTP将从这本画集出现!在那之前来看看某人:
白龙的脸漂亮得要杀人。幸好我不像某人以为他是女的。

这还不算什么,即将出现的是新来的皇贵妃……



要命哦!买了爱不释手~重看了又重看~哭多几下~感动!后来想买完其余的26本,可是……一本23块多叻。15号还要去The Mines书展买《特殊传说》第二部全八集,还有新版十集的特装版……唉~~~我又要over-budget了。

31 October 2013

The Look of that Day

Imange from zrochan.net

Feels everywhere. What can be more saddening than the death of a favorite character? What can be more touching than an unexpected reunion? This game is just full of feels.

Tales of the Abyss has to be one of my fave PS2 games, second only to Final Fantasy XII (or was it Final Fantasy X-2?) I watched the anime before I started playing, which means I totally forgot the whole plot.

Game-2006
Anime-2008
When I bought and beat the game-2011
Second playthrough-2013

A whole two years after I beat the game, I decided to replay it. All because of the OST! The feels in the near end of the game is overwhelming! Too overwhelming! When I remembered Asch died... Ion died... Luke's change, his disappearance... I decided to replay it.

Of course, there are always happy memories. When Luke fell into short coma, and I get to play Asch... DO YOU KNOW HOW HOT HE IS?! I'm serious, his status picture is just OMG and the party head-shot was Asch smiling! SMILING YOU GET IT! Maybe I should take some pictures of them (cause you can't find any in the f***in' internet). There's also Emperor Peony the Ninth, who is the second bishie of ToA of mine after Asch. His full name is too funny to be mentioned, so ima gonna upload some of his bishie face...
He is badass, baby. No one could beat his sexy voice and awesome personality. Lemme tell you his romantic story. He preserved a town which has the potential of being a commercialized resort JUST because his first love did not want to see the town change. The reason Peony didn't marry was also because he can't forget about her, and he's already 36. He has a few pet rappigs, all which have amusing names, especially Cute Jade. SHIPPING! Peony and Jade go well together.

I transferred all the Gald from the last save file, which was 370,000++, to the next gameplay. Suddenly in Grand Chokmah there's only about 33,000+ left. The game is not even halfway! WTF! Where the hell has all the money gone?! Grrr... I'll have to earn them back again by force. After Luke's second haircut, some events got into me. How you earn trust in days, in months, in years, and lose them in mere seconds. The hardship he faced when earning back his companions' trust, that one Guy that wouldn't abandon him though his attitude just sucks, and Anise's constant mocking and teasing. Oh, the feels! I'm starting to look into the game with more 'depth', unlike the first gameplay.

RAMBLING ALERT!
An interesting fact I found: The Grand Fonic Hymn, also known as Fuka, has seven verses based on the seven fonons. Each fonon is a verse, and each verse is a hymn. After some observation I realized that whenever Tear casts a hymn she'll sing a verse from the Fuka based on the fonon. When all the hymns are sung together in one song then you get the Grand Fonic Hymn. By now I only have the first, second and third hymns, meaning the first three verses of the Fuka.

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Imange from zrochan.net

24 October 2013

学校就像战场……

想到明天化学就很怕啊啊啊啊!!!
老师要杀人啊啊啊!!!
老师要杀人啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!

Nezumi不再做主角了,因为考试完了,可是我到最后还是画了废的东西……
想到主角就想到紫色。所以就紫色。其他角色都有她决定,所以邻家女孩就是那个刘海的。下面那个红头发的是主角的邋遢朋友~其实本人还真邋遢。最后就是我~那个绿头发的~暗恋主角的女孩~粉红色的馒头是学校的流浪猫,大家都爱的可爱猫~那个bear bear不用管~

戏名是Nezumi想的,不是我。这个名好难翻译成英文咯!
有人问:“这套戏是讲什么的?”
……讲考试?

17 October 2013


Suteki Da Ne remix by FFmusic Dj

Fate of the Unknown

I've been talking about school A LOT lately. I have 3 weeks worth of exams and we're nearing freedom! (This is the American Revolution!) Ahh~ I feel pretty stressed out but after today, things may get better I guess. The fates of my test papers are unknown... stay tuned for the next episode of "I fail school"!

This soundtrack IS FREAKIN AWESOME ESPECIALLY THE END PART.

06 October 2013

Good Luck My Way...

Bought past year questions yesterday, and is totally pissed off, tis gurl.

I finally found the latest Shounen Onmyouji! It's the 33rd book of the series! *cries* It's been such a long time since I last saw my most loved concubine! Then it struck! I missed two books! I've hardly seen any new books and this! I got a feeling Popular Bookstore's gonna stop selling the series somehow... and Cite doesn't sell them... what do I do... Pop says he'd allow me to order it from Taiwan but still, it pains me to see my long-time flame go out. I've been with them since I was 9. I could only wish myself good luck on finding my two 'lost concubines'.

Speaking of 'book concubines', I finally have the time to wrap up Assassin's Creed Brotherhood after all the Chemistry test ruckus last week.
They printed the author's name in RED (sideways), which to us, is an unlucky thing to do. Nevermind anyways...

So... does anyone here recognize this picture? Since we're having our year-end exams right now, the seating arranged is quite similar to this one... and Nezumi was last in the class register, so she sat by the window in the RIGHT. SHE WAS quite THE MAIN CHARACTER OMG. I was in the 'transfer student' seating, but acknowledged myself as 'that one person who has a crush on the main chara'. 'Childhood friend' (Ern) is in the next class, 'mysterious youth' (H.Han) has changed seating in front of main chara and is now known as 'the lively classmate who wears his/her uniform untidily'. She actually wore her blouse inside out to school after we started this (I mean like, is that a coincidence?). 'Class representative' (Leena) sits in the 'bitches and whores' area, but meh~ she IS the class monitor after all. Khei was 'the cat who wanders around in school grounds'. Err... like Momoneko-sama in Tamayura Hitotose:




(he's sleeping tummy up)

I've drawn a cat similar to him countless times! Isn't he cute~

The song doesn't start until 1:01 of the video.

27 September 2013

The Greatest Book Review... EVER!

This is one particular book review I wanted to write... without my teacher giving me a big ole' zero for it. I think we all know the stupid school novel entitled "Papa... akhirnya kau tewas jua!" I have A LOT of comments about this shity story.

The main character is Intan Julia (OMG there's a FF8 soundtrack named Julia!). She's the 'woman'. You know what I mean. She's smart, moderate looking, has the worlds most inseparable-lovebird-couple parents, and also the only daughter. She is the CENTER OF HER goddamn PARENT'S ATTENTION. Yet, to befriend a boy which her stupid father denies, she lied. And what's more she gets all jelly for Rasylan just cause he's hanging out with some other girls. They're not even a couple!
Character hate=10%

Up next, Julia's papa, Jeffri. HE'S THE WORST CHARACTER IN THE WHOLE STORY EVEN A RAPIST WINS HIM IN TERMS OF CHARACTER HATE. He 'loves' Intan Maliana very much. Ha! When his wife got pregnant, a bunch of people were trying to persuade her to abort the child because of she's a defective 'baby-making machine' (went on coma after Julia). Woah, it's not me who says she's a 'baby-making machine', Jeffri looks at her that way. He treats her that way. 'He loves his wife very much' my ass. Actions speak louder than words. His way of treating Intan Maliana proves to me, to us, that he doesn't care less! If Jeffri truly loves her, he would never let his wife take the risk of giving birth after complications 16 years before though he wished he could have another child! When Intan Maliana went into coma, he swore he wouldn't marry another. Guess what? He married his student. The reason: he's lonely (more like he couldn't suppress his loneliness waist down), he needs a wife (more like he's too lazy to get up on his own early in the morning for prayers, pfft) This is one phrase I heard from a drama:
A 25-year-old man likes a 25-year-old woman; when a man is 40 years old, he'll still like a 25-year-old woman!
True true, this case is one example. Oh hoho, that whore of a bitch's name is Aisyah, and this particular 'Aisyah' has shamed other people with the same name - wait, the author disgraced the people with this name!

Then he said "We must befriend people with a sincere heart without discriminating". Julia befriends Rasylan, an orphan of Jordan and Indonesian lineage. He's the product of a rape case. What's more, his adoptive father is the man whose car ran into Jeffri's parents, then ran away, but came back and paid for their hospital treatment. Jeffri forbids his daughter from befriending Rasylan because: one, he's a 'wild child', not of true Malayan heritage; two, his adoptive father matters. Is my social understanding too shallow, or this frickin' bastardi has to eat his own words?

When Julia knows of Jeffri's intentions to marry another, she objects, questions her father's decisions, then got slapped. WHAT KIND OF HUSBAND AND FATHER IS HE?! Julia finally agreed to let Jeffri remarry fearing her father's future happiness. Before the said wedding, Jeffri asked Julia, "If you son't want to me to marry, now is the time to say it," He's got some guts. The bride is already waiting and yet he can say these words like he could cancel the wedding and all when he's decided to marry! He's such an irresponsible man!

I've got some new perwatakan for him, let's see...
1) Tidak dapat mengawal nafsu
2) Tidak berpegang kepada janji
3) Malas
4) Tidak bertanggungjawab
5) Menilai orang dengan diskriminasi
6) Tidak mengaku kesalahan
7) Tidak dapat menjadi teladan kepada anak
8) Gatal
If there's more, fell free to tell me. *rolls eyes*
Character hate=100%
You get it? 100% character hate and I welcome you to do some extreme bashing on him.

Then we have Intan Maliana, Julia's mama and Jeffri's 'beloved' wife. She was nice and all, but stupid and love sick AT THE SAME TIME. The couple were almost like Altair(牛郎) and Vega(织女) at some point (they were sooooo love sick). She knew the complications she'll face if she were to give birth the second time, but love can overcome many obstacles... she agreed to keep the child because of her love for Jeffri... and got herself into a coma. Hahahahahaha!
Character hate=20%

Aisyah is Jeffri's second wife, also his student. OMG did I just say 'student'?! Aisayh is rich, good-looking and most importantly, YOUNG. Young probably means a virgin, and maybe also a tight figa. I bet Jeffri had 'fun' with her during their first night. Even the olden princes of the church can never keep the thing in their loins without attention for too long! She got pregnant after that. Imagine: you, 17+. Your mom is in a coma and your dad decides to marry another young, fit lady. That woman is almost the same age as you, and you're calling her "mother". What's more, she is pregnant! Congratulations! CAN YOU FRICKIN ACCEPT THAT?! I CANNOT. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW THIS WOMAN CAN MARRY A MAN WHO CAN BE HER FATHER WHEN HE'S HER TEACHER AND I GUESS THAT'S BECAUSE THEY DID NOT LEARN PENDIDIKAN MORAL. (No offence, but they really didn't learn that subject) Maybe that's why they say love is blind.
Character hate=50%

Enough character hate, let's move to teh PLOT.
Most of the plot is already mentioned in Jeffri's profile, so now I'll tell you about the hilarious ending. Intan Maliana was in coma right? So that one particular day (after Jeffri's second marriage and Aisyah's pregnancy) where Julia and Jeffri came to greet her, she woke up. WOKE UP WITHOUT PRIOR NOTICE. Then father and daughter were so happy that they forgot the most important thing... Aisyah came into the scene and tada! Intan Maliana saw the lady's swelling belly while Jeffri was trying to find the right words to explain to his first wife. He did explain, saying he was lonely (again). Tears were shed and suddenly Intan Maliana finds it hard to breathe and... dropped dead. The end~

Moving on to education matters. This novel is NOT appropriate for teenagers because:
1) It somehow implies teacher/student relationships (not that I'm against it, but it doesn't look good)
2) Promotes a person to marry multiple wives
3) Encourages children to befriend someone behind their parent's backs
4) Tells you to slap someone if they find your mistakes

Even my teachers can't understand why the government agreed to let this novel be part of out syllabus.

That's it! I probably just want to bash Jeffri in this post but WHO CARES ANYWAY?! Hope you all "Papa..." haters out there enjoy this particular review about shitty characters and stupid plot! Addio, amico mio! I hope we'll be able to do some bashing again!


Because there's a character named Julia in Final Fantasy VIII. (I actually wanted to put the Dissidia 012 version, but Tifa's boobs are in the way.)

10 September 2013

When People Grow Up...


My fellow primary school classmates, if you somehow found me, do you remember this? Well, if you don't and then remembered this to be funny four years ago, then I'll tell you - this is a form of bullying.

"How?" you ask. Bullying doesn't mean it has to be physical, you can hurt someone mentally too. In this case, it is. I've only rewatched it recently, and different from four years ago, I find this a lot more than disturbing. I've laughed at this for God knows how many times when I was 12, but yesterday, I can laugh no more. Since entering secondary school, I've known a lot of bullying cases from teachers, 'informants' and gossipish parents. How can I not realize that the act of sitting and laughing my ass off while watching someone get bullied through words was also considered a brutal act?

I faced the music of my parents after they found out I've been watching the video. I vaguely remember what they shouted at me, but I know it's nothing to be proud of. It took me four years to realize my mistake. And to those who are reading, I hope you realize yours too.

I'm sincerely sorry.

08 September 2013

Crappy Phone Photos

I realized I have some of my crappy quality photos lying around in my phone, and so decided to share the shit I snap when I'm bored.
Drew this during a boring lecture about leadership. Spot the charas~

The point is 'VIEWFINDER'. As a yaoi fangirl, it triggers a lot.

Fly Me to the Moon is a 20th century song. In this case, I think of Bayonetta.

Japanese Pocky! It's an item used to get a kiss. I've been reading too much shoujo manga!

Mah PS3~
I've searched Mirror's Edge for ages!
Sleep tight my babies...
Ass-ass-in Creed
The Lightning Saga collection, short on LR.
Meet Controller-kun!
My games port.

My massive novel collection! Note that this is not all; there's more at the back and on the top right shelf. Gundam in the background!
I FINALLY FOUND THE ASSASSIN'S CREED NOVELS IN SUNWAY PYRAMID POPULAR BOOKSTORE! ONE SHELF WORTH OF ASS CREED! Curse Fifty Shades of Gray down there.


This is an optical store. Has been in Summit for ages, but that lady on the wall in the left actually reminds me of Bayonetta....

I know... crappy photos. My phone camera has only 5px.