A Dreamer's Life on Earth

22 May 2014

May the Father of Understanding guide us

...for a brief moment. Apparent hiatus may continue during holidays so yeah, I'm getting real pissed.

This year we have 2 and a half weeks - almost 3 WEEKS worth of holidays, and all I can do is study and study and study. Other than studying it's still studying. Damn. My motto now is to get my hands on Elizabeth and then I'll get other Tales games for myself, and maybe in the meantime finish off AbOb.

It's the most dreadful time of the year - mid-year exams! All of us wish to jump of a cliff to eternity. Speaking of exams, I haven't prepared my script for Ezio's life story. It's due next month, the oral is in July. Add-Maths was great (Yeah REAL great), Science subjects are OK at the moment, but I've partially given up. Oh Yevon, oh Etro, be merciful to me, your loyal servant in this cruel, cruel world.

06 April 2014

Throwbacks

Go listen to this playlist. NOW.

The above is an awesome playlist. Brings back a lot of memories, minus some missing songs. Then you get all the feels like, "What the hell, it's been a decade?! This song is soooooo OLD!" You go down memory lane, thinking of the days when you're still a silly brat, sitting down in front of the old box TV, watching cartoons, maybe you heard some songs on the radio or during advertisements.

Few years later you're that shite teenager in school, listening to the radio. Then your hear this familiar song, but you don't remember the name, or the artist. Good thing we have SoundHound these days. I remember listening to Shania Twain's
Ka-ching on TV when I was a kid all the time (with the music video) and I only found the song by accident a month ago! There was another song, but I forgot the melody entirely, so it's no use.

Then there was this old mosquito repellent advertisement which they used a song of old. I don't get why my friends can't seem to recall the thing.

18 March 2014

Liberty, Time and Love

Watching crazy shows make you crazy too. I mean it.

Sorry to say this, but happy belated birthday Desmond. Wish the brotherhood could celebrate with you, but I guess Lucy will keep you company...

I have so many feels, so it'll be hardcore rambling post!

I had liberty, but I did not see it;

I had time, but I did not know it;

And I had love, but I did not feel it.

Liberty. He had plenty of liberty when he was born. His parents were very much liberal. He could have silly fights with the Pazzi, beat up his sister's cheater, sleep with his girlfriend without getting caught. After that fateful day he lost his freedom. His loving family turned upside down in mere minutes. The men of his family were put in prison, his mother and sister spared, nevertheless, they were stripped of their happy family. He can never have fights with the Pazzi, he has to kill them; he can never beat up his sister's cheaters, he has to kill politics cheaters; he can never sleep with his girlfriend without getting caught, his love life with Cristina ended... tragically. His later life was occupied by vengeance and hatred. All his life he used to protect those he loved, and the order which caused it all. Only at around 50+ did he get his liberty back, and it was a little too late.

Time. When he was young he spent money and time on women and wine. He had a leisure life. In a few moments he turned from handsome, naive, carefree brat into brooding, vengeful man. The men of his family were hanged. His father, his older brother and even the youngest who was only 13. He used his time to track down those who framed his family of conspiracy. He barely had time for his mother and sister, who has also lost their beloved family members. He spent his time on 'the greater good', just to let it get messed up by some future guy in the 1750's. His time was short when his career as a killer ended.

Love. His family was very close. He had the love of his life. Then one event took them all away. His mother lost the sparkle in her eyes. She became very weak and frail, and was especially shocked by the death of his husband and sons. His sister Claudia was doomed to sit in front of the logbook doing sums, later shamed and criticized for her role as the madam of a brothel. He closed his heart and kept it from other people. He may have many loves from different cities, but his heart was all for Cristina. However they both knew their love would never bloom or bear fruit. She died in his arms 25 years later. Then he met Sofia, his new hope. His new driving force that kept him alive for another 10+ years. He had found love again, but he was short on time.

He had all three when he was young, but he did not realize their existence. Only when he had lost them entirely that he knew: it was all too late to regret it now. He was a fine mentor. He was famous. After Altair, he was the next best thing the brotherhood could ever ask for.

I watched as he came to this world. I watched him grow. I saw him die. He grew from a boy to a man in a few hours. Was that a strain? Yes it certainly was. But he did not know.

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(Don't lose you way in your mind
We have to be as one
Don't be afraid my sweet heart
This is the way to be more strong)

08 March 2014

I'm Back!

Heeeellooooo! I'm back after the long haitus! It's been a busy week as I have exams(oops, I'm not finished yet) and other stuff to worry about, but here I am, REVIVED!

There's always lots to talk about, but news flash is:
I'm drawing mini comics on everyday life every week (hopefully)
Going to start reading Game of Thrones (if I can find a bookstore that sells them)
GIF making will start soon (very very very long time)
Hurry up and finish half of The Last of Us gameplay (if I can manage anyway)

All of them will mostly start during the coming holidays if I do not have any delay activities like sailing the high seas or hunting. Well, I'm starting the week after exams! I'm impatient!

'Sleep Book'

16 February 2014

Belated Valentines

Last week was an eventful week I tell ya, V-Day is on Friday!
I've been busy making cards fer friends the whole week starting on Tuesday with limited resources and postponed naps. Everyday was hectic as I had to run around the store for materials. Worst even, I don't have a color printer at home and I had to visit a shop to get the images printed (poker face). To make things worst, I overlooked someone and had to think of a way to do the card with only scraps left. I managed... somehow. I promised myself to take pictures of the cards to keep as memories, but they weren't taken until midnight, which I scrambled out of my bed and took sloppy and rushed pictures.

To Nezumi, who thought of a great story I wished to take part in;

To Leena, with her undying love for Mako and Haru, plus Aomine;

To S.Yee, in which she shall fly to freedom with her invisible wings;

To Aevyn, and her sweet tooth for Sticky;

To Lian Lian, my 'waifu', for she requested candy;

To H.Han, and her Forever Alone blog;

To Khei, who reminds me of cats;

To Heidi, who is famed for cuteness;

To Shizu, with her small, cute puppy-like features;

To Ern, and her wish to go to Hgwarts;

To WanNee, and her splendid personality;

To Zhin, the cow, the sparkling night;

To Little Sheep, the cutest person alive;

To Hooi Shin, Roast Bun, a simple card;

And lastly Ainina, who loves Aomine

The hardest card to make was probably Aeveyn's with such a thin piece of paper and tons of things to stick. Little Sheep's was the most heartbreaking as I changed her card THREE times and finalized with using a very dear piece of paper. The most expensive was Ainina's, adding up the printing services and the paper used, I think it's very well more than a ringgit. The sparkly paper was so hard to glue, I partially gave up. Then I realized that the crumpled pink paper was HARDER. It came off every. Single. Damned. Time.

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09 February 2014

Forever Childish

I hate it when Blogger makes my banner look all dim and stuff. It was actually really bright and colorful! Damn you.

So, it's SPM year again(NOOOOOOOOOOO). I didn't study AT ALL. I think I'm gonna fail my mission of getting at least 5As. Few weeks ago we had a seminar called "ACTION is POWER". The counselor told us to write down our short-term and long-term visions. Of course she expected us to write stuff like 'get xxxxAs for SPM', or maybe 'to work as xxxx' that sort of thing, but I'm always full of surprises. Guess what I wrote?

Short-term vision

Get PS4

Get KH3, FF15, The Order 1886

Start playing GTA

Get straight As (like that'll ever happen)

Long-term vision

Earn lots moneh!$

Improve art!

Do GIFs!

Improve in FPS!

Buh mah books!

Buh original Jp manga!

The she told us to write the type of person we want to be in the future, and I wrote:

I'll be a person of success in my own eyes, in my parent's eyes. No person can tell me how successful I am. Everyone is just so materialistic!

I bet if the counselor saw the things I wrote, I'll be called out.

Back to mind palace topic. Fanfiction.
I stopped writing them for months! I browsed through my older works and found some really embarrassing ones. The grammar sucks so much, I could cry. Not just fanfics though. Even my own stories suck so much I started laughing at the writing styles. Then I came across two poems I wrote for dA way back. THE FEELS.

Three Friends
Three friends sitting on a wall.
Three eating ice creams,
Talking about thier missions,
8, 13, 14.

However...
When 14 knows her place,
She runs away,
Lost, disappointed, angry.
She meets her end in the hands of 13,
Forever forgotten...

Two friends sitting on the wall.
Lost a friend that was never there.
13 says goodbye,
Tears shed,
The sign of emotion...

The 358 days spent without memories,
And 7 days of illusion,
Makes up a year of slumber...
...he was not real.

8...
What made him go so far?
What gave him the strength?
"Let's meet in the next life,"
There is no next life.
13 won't be coming back.
14 will never return.

"...what is your true name?"

Four friends sitting on the wall.
Four eating ice creams,
Talking about their summer holidays,
Forever an illusion,
A friendship that never existed...

...a tale that was never meant to be.

Good news to myself, I've bought Assassin's Creed IV: Black Flag! Yay! *squeals* I looked into Bioshock Infinite, but I suck at FPS so I gave it up. While browsing that one Ac game caught my eye: Assassin's Creed Heritage Collection. HERITAGE COLLECTION?! SERIOUSLY?! Bought it straight away, no questions asked. Got back home, had a good look and unwrapped...

Damn. The inside was gorgeous! It had the original AC and ACII downloads! *squeals* NOW I GET TO SEE YOUNG SASS EZIO. *FANGIRLING INTESIFIES* I also bought The Last of Us and I cried when Sarah died(oh, baby girl!).

And also I've been busy editing stuff from my scans(yeah). The banner and profile pic are only two examples. There are more custom cursors to do and I haven't finished the Free! series. *sigh*

*whispers* Free! will have a second season. OMFG!!!!!

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This song is dedicated to my friends, who for a split second, I thought was really childish(including me!). Heck, the girls our age weren't like us!