EUROVISION SONG CONTEST 2016

Eurovision has been popping up on my tumblr dash since what? Two years ago? And all I know about it is dubstep opera vampire, sparkly shorts, err, someone in drag (or were they trans??? idk) and lots of 12 points to neighboring countries. Here is a brief explanation of Eurovision by tumblr user bobbimorxe:

ok i know this is a good opportunity to make a funny post but i’m gonna try my best to ACTUALLY explain it

basically eurovision was founded in th 50′s after WWII when people were like “we need something to unite europe” so they were like “clearly the most logical thing is a huge music competition”. in 2016 over 250 million people watch it

so each country get to pick a song, it varies how seriously people take this and how they do it, in a lot of countries the tv station picks an entry, in sweden for example we have a six week long battle to the death on national television with around 40 contestors.

the big five always have a secure place in the final cause they pay a lot of money: the uk, italy, germany, spain, france

after the semi finals there are about 25 european countries left (somehow israel, azerbajdzjan and australia is in europe, don’t ask cause i don’t know)

this is where the weird really begins.. like every country can send pretty much WHATEVER they want so this is like the only place where you’ll first see a number that’s like a dubstep opera vampire with nude dancers and then the next number will be someone singing about the political horrors of war.

ok the VOTING is a science in itself each country gives points 1-8, 10, and 12. the twelve points aka DOUZE POINTS is the hot girl that everyone wants.

neighbour voting, aka the unwritten rule that you give high scores to your neighbours, maybe not the 12 but if it’s not the 8 or 10 it’s kinda rude. for example last night THIS HAPPENED



like i make jokes but i’m honestly lowkey mad. ths is like the worst betrayal since the red wedding. and we got 5th place so obviously other countries liked us WHAT GIVES????

“there are no politics in eurovision” like the biggest lie ever. also this year was really dramatic and the two highest scores were between russia and ukraine who would win, and i’m just “what kind of symbolism”

also watch this and this, it basically explains everything you need to know

So three Europeans I follow have been live tweeting and posting about the ESC grand final last Saturday. Boy, was it hilarious! Like one moment Ukraine sang about shit Russia did years ago, another there was a Dark Souls boss singing about Lighthouses, then a girl who has an onion or potato idek, someone brought Jesus back, there's a nude person singing with wolves, and Germany pulled some Harajuku fashion show. Grand finals had a paper towels fashion runway. During the final announcement the jury pulled off a Dumbledore (10000000 points to Ukarine!!!!) when everyone thought Australia was gunna win.

On tumblr ESC may look ridiculous, but the songs were decent. There are a few songs I liked, and most of them were english, only one was french (I think).

Finland's song is OK, and since they were the first to perform it was memorable, but they didn't make it to finals. Croatia's Lighthouse (the Dark Souls boss) was my favorite. Hungary had a really nice song and a handsome singer. Austria was the first non-English song in semi-finals, and I loved it! I don't understand a word but the singer was pretty and the way she sang it blew me away. I thought it was probs french. Belgium had the most upbeat song, almost made it into my top 3 but didn't because it's too funky. Poland brought Jesus back. No kidding. Jamala won ESC 2016 but I can't hear a single word of her song. I just can't hear anything properly. It's very haunting though.













The two semi-finals and grand final is available in the official ESC Youtube channel.

REVIEW: Final Fantasy XIII-2 (videogame)

Current mood: Stop screaming Serah, stand and fight properly jfc.

I bought the game alongside with my PS3 and FF13. Ahh a sequel. I remember when the website updated with recurring characters, and Hope was one of them, and he's all grown up! I squealed. No kidding, squealed!! Adult Hope is sooo hot!!!! *fangirls*

去PJ探险！

婆婆来过夜几天，办完手续后就礼拜二坐火车回太平。

一整天在家发霉的我当然就必须陪婆婆去到KL Sentral看她平安地上火车。

5月3号，礼拜二，七早八早连早餐都没吃就跟上班族们挤火车。婆婆上到火车后我才慢吞吞地道McD去买早餐……那时都已经是10点了。

我要去的Stickerrific 12点才开门，可是我已经无聊到想不到事情做了，只好坐LRT到Asia Jaya站。

到站后发现忘记巴士号码，而且前几个月号码也全都换了，所以不知道要坐哪辆才到Jaya One。我在远方好像看到Jaya One，就以为蛮靠近的可以走路就到……

可是没想到这么远啊？？？！！！现在看回去我走的距离还真吓人……到Digital Mall就不知道要怎么走了，就停在公园里打电话求救——老豆！！！还好天气还阴阴的，不会说很热，可是汗还是流很多。

去到Jaya One，发现我走了那么远才花了半个小时……还有一个小时才开店啊。坐在别的地方吹冷气，休息休息（脚好酸）。进到店里简直是文具地狱（stationery hell）。什么都想买。还有它们的猫都好可爱~在那花了91块买了笔记本，笔和贴纸。

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要回火车站。搭到巴士，不过是停在别的站。还是上了因为不要再等下一班巴士。回到家，忘记买鸡蛋！！！！

第二天早上又早起，因为要去学校办手续。脚好酸啊啊啊

REVIEW: Boku Dake ga Inai Machi (anime)

Current mood: I think my heart forgot to beat and my lungs forgot to breathe.

This was one of the more sensational series in the season, but aint nobody got time for that! Amberly suggested it long before it ended (episode 3 I guess?), and there are some twists and turns in tumblr, so you know the gist. Had to watch it! However my heart is not accustomed to thriller and mystery, so I had a really hard time keeping my cool while watching.

REVIEW: Final Fantasy XIII (videogame)

Current mood: MY HANDS!!!!!

When I first bought my PS3, Final Fantasy XIII and its sequel is a must have. So yeah, it's my first PS3 game. I got up to Gran Pulse and stopped because there were too many side missions and I don't want to go to Eden yet. But LR happened and I finished it... so maybe it's time to finish it???

REVIEW: My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult (Book)

Current mood: I'm mad. Really mad.

My aunt was clearing her old book collection(She lent me To Kill a Mockingbird and The Memory Keeper's Daughter, both are awesome!) and told me to choose anything I wanted out of the pile before she gave them away. There are multiple thriller and mystery novels, but I didn't take them because those are bad for my heart. I've heard of Jodi Picoult before, and the story seemed ok, so I took it and left it there on my shelf collecting dust. Then one holiday I was cleaning the dust-filled bookshelves and it seemed like a good idea to read it, so I did.

The story takes place in a span of days, probably a week, told by six characters. There are also bits of flashbacks. There's Anna, our conflicted, 13-year-old main character; her parents Sara and Brian; Anna's brother Jesse(though he only plays a small part in narrating); Anna's attorney Campbell; and finally the legal guardian person whatever Julia.

Anna hires Campbell as her attorney to sue her parents, specifically Sara, over control for her own body. Kate, Anna's sister, is very sick. She has been since birth. To keep her alive Sara conceived genetically-engineered Anna for Kate's needs. And things go smoothly for a few until Kate needs something to keep her alive again. Anna provides whatever Kate needs, and does so for the following years. If Kate gets admitted into the hospital, Anna will have to go too.

Kate's kidneys are failing due to leukemia. Again, Anna is expected to donate her kidney to Kate, even if the surgery is not guaranteed to work. That is when Anna hires Campbell. Sara is outraged. She thinks Anna just wants attention. Things escalate quickly as Anna reveals that it was Kate who didn't want the kidney transplant. Kate is tired of living like this, and wants it to stop. When everybody thinks Kate was the one destined to die, Anna gets involved in a car crash and becomes brain-dead. Her organs are donated and Kate survives the surgery and remains in remission until the book ends.

I have so many feels for this book, but mostly anger because while I had plenty of freedom since I was young, Anna didn't. She didn't have a choice. From Anna's opening narrative, she was born for a purpose. And that was to save Kate. Her genes were specially engineered to be an exact copy of Kate's. And I feel sorry for Anna, because she was literally a spare-organ provider for Kate. Sara may love Anna, yes, but from what I see, Sara loves Anna no more than her ability to save Kate's life.

I was always frowning at Sara's narratives (especially the flashbacks), but one scene really took the cake.

"...I don't think you should take Anna in to donate blood."
"When we had Anna," I remind Brian, "we knew that she was going to be a donor for Kate."
" Once. And she doesn't have any memory of us doing that to her."
"Would you give blood for Kate?"
"Jesus Sara, what kind of question——"
"I would too. ... You do what ever you have to, when it comes to people you love right? What makes you think Anna would feel any different?"

What makes you think that Anna would NOT feel any different??? Have you ever asked Anna if she was wiling to do any of that shit, you stupid woman?! Did you??? Thought not! I screamed and shouted and cursed and even threw the book somewhere soft so it won't crease! And then there's another where Anna wants to go to a hockey training camp of some sort, but Sara refused to let her go:

...we will need Anna——her blood, her stem cells, her tissue——right here.

Because you don't need Anna, your daughter; you need Anna, Kate's spare-organ provider. I'm not even talking about Jesse!

He's what we always write in high school essays: not enough love from parents will cause the child to get themselves involved in crimes so that they could get parent's attention. A juvenile. And why? WHY? He has done so much crimes, so much that Sara and Brian doesn't even bother shout at their son for whatever he's done. But Jesse and Anna love Kate, they didn't want her dead. Jesse donates his blood for Kate and Anna still acts as a spare-organ provider for Kate.

But sometimes, people who give too much will want it to stop. And the one who has one leg on the other side would like to end this suffering. And Sara, who I know just wants Kate to survive, will have to know that Anna is a living person, not livestock.

...but Sara is a mother, of course she wants both her daughters to live. I know she loves her children, but you can never love them equally. Favoritism is a thing. I may never understand, because the person I love the most is myself.

I bashed Sara too much in this post didn't I?

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

考试完毕。等死时间到。

Tanu说要去玩，可是迟迟没决定要去哪里，所以我就提议去唱K了。本来想着要去溜冰（去sunway pyramid），可是好像没有人很想去玩，到最后该地点到midvalley去了。我和Shun Xuan可以顺便回家，其他人就到时回学校。

礼拜三，我们约上9点半的巴士到火车站。我最早到，过后Ana就来了，Li Rou后面跟来了拉着大行李的Shun Xuan。Tanu最迟，而且还是巴士要出发的前一秒才到。唉。

到了Midvalley，Tanu说不想早上乱喊，我们就决定先看部电影才唱。一路走到顶层我的心飘到卖game的两间店，Ana被我拉着去养眼，Tanu很无奈。很想看的《Zootopia》只有下午2点才有，我们就只好看11点场的《Kung Fu Panda 3》。广告开始，第一个就是新的TMNT，开始看到好多爆炸还心想会不会是Michael Bay导演……果然。出了名最爱把东西炸飞的导演。不过这次估计会比2014的那部好多了。会这么说是因为在预告片里看到了该有的人物：



《Kung Fu Panda 3》还不错，还是那么好笑！Ahhhh, stairs...

You're seriously afraid? Even Master Chicken's going in, and he's a *chicken*!

I can't teach kung fu! I couldn't even teach Tigress! And she already knows kung fu!

看完戏后就是去唱k！一班人（加上一个行李）跑到The Gardens的Redbox。楼下刚好有提款机，因为怕不够钱我就去提款了。问题是提款机隔壁就是我的最爱——ART FRIEND！啊啊又养眼又让人心痛的店啊！

我是第一个进房的，所以我先选歌，不过前面几首是流行歌曲，还是有人会唱。多数是我坐在小银幕前帮他们点歌。前面的流行歌曲过了就轮到我选的没人晓得的歌……Tanu还选了印尼歌来唱！有几首华语歌只出没了三首。我倒最后最后才选了我要的日文歌（因为通常没有字幕），没想到我最想唱的竟然有字幕，心痛死了！最后一首是我选的。会挑那首也是因为我爱死AC（不过有些歌还蛮多人知道的）。

我选这首歌的时候真的没多想，就是看到就选，可是没想到歌词竟然正讲述着我们五个人的处境。



过后我们在Redbox外面拍了selfie（不是我愿意的），然后在不同的月台等火车，就这样我和另外三个朋友道别了。到了KL Sentral要转车，也跟最后一个说掰掰。

到站时已经6点多，老妈也下班了，就叫她来火车站载我。我的假期也就正式开始了……

Review: FANGIRL - Rainbow Rowell (Book)

Current mood: MY. HEART.

The first time I heard about the book was through Missy Dragon. We were all about our own fandoms back then (still do), and Fangirl looked like the book I would be interested... except the fact that it's thick. English books were waaaaay off my charts back then, so I didn't plan on buying it. Then came National Service and there was a girl with Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell. I was bored to death since I just finished Lord of the Rings and she kept praising the book for its 'sweetness' and 'oooohh's and 'aaahhhhs'. I borrowed the book even before she finished it, then simply had my heart broken. Seriously. That book was so good I bought an original first edition copy myself along with Fangirl when I got back.

Fangirl. It applies to mostly to me and Missy Dragon in our little circle. Being a fangirl is what makes me and in this story, Cath. She's a beloved fanfiction writer on the internet in the Simon Snow fandom, and guess what, she writes gay fanfiction. YES! THIS IS MY KIND OF FANFICTION! *slams table* She loves writing, but faces a lot of introvert problems and without her twin sister Wren by her side, things get harsher. Wren has already grown out of the fandom, but Cath hasn't, and thinks she never will. Levi came into the picture, subtly flirting with Cath, and oblivious her is oblivious and confused. Reagan, her roommate, your typical 'bros before hos' kind of mean girl helps her out in the most unexpected ways (and moments).

Cath deals with her sweet father who can't do without his daughters, Wren's new bitch attitude, her mother barging into her life, a professor who expects great things from her, and trust issues with Levi. Real life problems aside, Cath faces extreme pressure as the ending (final volume) of Simon Snow approaches, and she struggles to finish her fanfiction before the book is released.

Cath realizes she can't run away from reality anymore, and solves the problems one at a time before peacefully retreating to her safe haven. Wren hasn't grown out of the fandom; she just wants to have fun in college. Too much, in fact. Their mother never wanted to be back in their life. She just wants to be there as a friend, not a mother figure. Cath failed her prof's assignment, but was given a second chance and she took it, even won a prize for her writing. Things worked out with Levi, but most importantly, she knows how to balance her fandom with reality.

Some of us don't know how to balance between the real world and our illusions. I am one of them. I invest so much in fictional people I tend to forget people irl aren't like that. People irl are not likable at all. Because being someone who likes anime and games will get looked down upon, I tend to hide the fact I'm a fandom person. The 'norm' is to like actors and singers and models, not fictional people. But that's ok. People come and go in our lives. Those who stay, stay. But the fandom will always be with you. You can leave it anytime, put it on hold, and come back when you feel like it. It won't leave you, it won't abandon you, and it will always welcome you back. Your fictional loves and children will be there where you left them. It's a personal haven.

I'm a fangirl. Hell, I'm no fan-girl. I'm a fan-goddess.