I'm Tired

I'm really, really tired.
I'm tired of talking,
I'm tired of my hobbies,
I'm tired to go anywhere,
I'm tired of deceiving my friends,
I'm tired of everything!

I'm too tired to defend myself from words,
I'm too tired to defend my minority thoughts,
I'm too tired to make decisions,
I'm too tired to not close my eyes and enter my slumber.

I wish that I could close my eyes and when I wake up, everything was fine and peaceful, just like the way I wanted. Plain colors of the world like Mirror's Edge; vivid, yet relaxing.

Maybe... It's my fault. Maybe it's better if I didn't exist at all. I tried to fight these thoughts for a very long time... but never succeed to dismiss them.

I'm really tired.