I was wondering if I mentioned anything about me starting the adult life but apparently not! Last actual post about life was a month before I started working! The pandemic really fucked up everyone's sense of time...
So yeah, I started working. Not a surprise since being a neet is unsustainable for someone with a hobby like mine. A lot happened since that last life update post (mostly my mental state but we're not talking about that rn and I haven't felt that shitty since the new year so that's a good sign? I guess?), the most significant change being I AM A MMORPG PLAYER NOW HOLY SHIT-
Past me would never believe it because I am terrified of multiplayer. But the sexy fanart and memes are too good to pass up so I caved. I actually started playing the expanded free trial since August 2020 but didn't sub until the new expansion announcement in February 2021. I was in deep man. I played FF14 whenever time allowed which means 13-14 hour gaming sessions during my off days, which now that I think about it, was really bad. The hype died down a bit after I finished Endwalker but it's not the lack of content or activities, in fact I have tons of levelling to do, but the burnout caught up. That, and ping is super bad so I can't play without disconnecting or lagging every few minutes. Frustrating stuff. Also I'm just a lousy player so I can't go into multiplayer activities without having an anxiety attack. Anyways here's my character, it's cringe but it's my brand of cringe.
Since I broke my own rule of not playing any game on the PC, consoles have been lying dead for a year at least. I remember booting up two of the three to play some Tales and... promptly went back to FF14. There aren't many new games that caught my eye in the past year, I'm not interested in the newer Assassin's Creed games, I don't have a PS5 for Tales of Arise, and I've given up on getting AC3 Liberation at this point. Plus, I don't know if I have the time to play during weekdays after work. It's always so much easier just click the FF14 launcher and sign in. I'll go back to consoles, someday...
Gaming consoles are not the only things getting ignored. The only novels on my shelf right now are a few completed series and two ongoing, one of which is getting less attention than the other (looking at you TUL, I'm so sorry that you got sidelined for a series which I have been following for 12 years now but sometimes life do be like that).
SSMY hyperfixation died down a bit but I'm still buying the manga without a care in the world (since I'm earning my own keep now hah!), still makes me roll on the bed in silent screams whenever I think about their wholesome dynamic and let's not forget the FLOOR. Ever since sensei pulled out all the stops in that chapter things have been hornier and hornier each chapter. Just when we thought stuff couldn't get better she makes us go batshit crazy about something else.
Of course there's my latest hyperfixation, Netflix's She-Ra, or as the people call it, SPOP. Everything that has to be said was said in the review post so go read it! Just know that I've had gay brainworms since early March and it's not going away anytime soon. It's so gay. Soooooooo gay.
Art-wise, I had a lot of time to hone my sklls in the 2 years since the pandemic started... I've gained new skills including: non-explicit nsfw, tongue, fluids, blood, backgrounds (but not really) and SHIP ART (this is important). The 1 year anniversary of my fangame also passed in September 2021, so there's a special illustration I did for all my hard work, expanded on the yakuza AU for ssmy/iwnry, drew more cringe for FF14... Basically I've been drawing a full piece every month, sometimes more. Except December because EW happened. Here's the summary:
Sadly you won't be able to find any of my art anywhere anymore. One of the biggest things I did was the deletion of my deviantart page. It was hard for me to do because I grew up with the site and my art journey was very much influenced by the community, but I no longer feel like posting my art online, not after all the failed attempts and disappointment. The art I made was still meant to be shared, such is the nature of an artist, so I'm still figuring out the best way to do this without actually posting online. Until then, the only way for anyone to see anything I make is to wait for the yearly art summaries, or until I couldn't take it anymore and go back to pixiv. Stay tuned I guess?
Here's an artzine I made last year (it's choppy bc CSP is a bitch and wouldn't let you export in pdf format unless it's the jpn version of the program).
Today I present to you, a banger from 2013 that I discovered thanks to a catradora fanfic I read:
