The death of a chara

Clear died, HE DIED! And I f***in' cried during his death. Zack's death didn't trigger that, Xion's death didn't trigger that! The saddest deaths of all time did not trigger my tears when I first watched them... so that means Clear's death will be the first game death I'll ever weep. It's too heartbreaking though there's no animation.

The first ever similar death I've ever cried was while reading senpai's death at midnight. I actually saw that coming, and did not shed a tear until a certain someone says, "Senpai will never be coming back... ever." ...may Little Sheep brace herself for this.

Envy's suicide from Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood was the second to make me cry at 'first view'. He's ugly, sloppy, disgusting, but his demeanor changes the whole feeling to the situation, and the fact that he decided to end himself rather than letting humans finishing him off is just...

It took me a few times to learn to cry during Zack's death, by the end of the crying lesson I can even repeat his last words in Japanese. Xion's death, I'm not so sure about because no matter how many times I repeat the scene, water just won't flow out!

Have some of Clear's BE ending song. Immer Sie means 'always' in German, by the way.

Clear didn't really die, tho. He's a machine, so a few repairs did him good and he's back to normal.

CROSSover + sum random shit

So many feels and emotions.

You'll burn this time
Seeing the violence
It's feeding my mind
No one is saving you
How can you find
A heaven in this hell?

This is where we're supposed to be
Sitting by a broken tree
No tragedy, no poetry
Just staring at the sky

And I tried to hold him
I tried for the creed
I'll make a suit of colours
To stop the blinding mirrors

Angels have faith
I don't want to be a part of his sin
I don't want to get lost in his world
I'm not playing this game

I could wait a thousand hours
Stay the same in sun and showers
Pick apart a hundred flowers
Just to be quiet
Tell me when you feel ready
I'm the one, there's not too many
Hold my hand to keep me steady
Just to be quiet
With you

I'm waking up, I feel it in my bones
Enough to make my systems blow
Welcome to the new age, to the new age

I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

We're just a falling star, we're just a broken seed.
And when an ocean parts, will you wanna sink our dreams?
I don't know what we are or what we'll ever be, so listen when you feel your heart skip a beat.

To be made of glass
When two suns are shining
The battle becomes blinding
To be made of glass
But we ride tonight, tonight, tonight, we ride

From the ashes of hate
It's a cruel demon's fate
On the wings of darkness
He's returned to stay
There will be no escape
Cause he's fallen far from grace

‘Cause your soul is on fire
A shot in the dark,
What did they aim for when they missed your heart?

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

Sequel of...

I finally get it! The answer to this post. Remember saying that she had Princess Syndrome? Well, that's only half the answer. The symptoms are very close to... reverse harem/male harem.

First things first: Harem is something only the upper-class men in olden times get to have. Err, here's the article form Wikipedia. In other words, commonly said to my friends - "后宫". That should explain it.

So, about reverse/male harem, it's the opposite. Whereas the common harem had women, this one had men! (Doesn't make sense, because in S- Pistols there're males in the winged race harem.) Two of the most famous animes with such themes are as follows:

I think everybody knows these two. I prefer Ouran over Fruits Basket, cause Tohru is just... how do I say it, too wimpy? These days, Otome games are made into anime for fanservice purposes. Yes, fangirls love them bishies.

Amnesia
Note there's another guy at the back, but you only got 4 lover candidates.

Uta no Prince-ssma (1000% or 2000% Love, dunno)
6++ lover candidates

Hakuouki

I never thought this was an Otome game. I like the outfits~ Around 5+++ lover candidates.

Arcana Famiglia

Unexpected! 7 lover candidates. The Heroine is just so cool!!!!

Starry Sky

12 lover candidates.

Brothers Conflict
13 lover candidates! WOW. Note there's NO FEMALE in this pic.

Now we discuss how Calf is going to achieve her goal of getting her own harem. The similarities in Otome games is all the bishies are head over heels for the heroine. Well, not exactly since the start of the game, but through interactions and decisions made. The best way to start your own harem is to interact more with the opposite sex. Thus the commotion about her boyfriend being jelly. All the bishies in the game are not interested in anyone except for the heroine, so since Calf wanted to create her harem she has to keep the others at bay too, in case they somehow flew off with other women. Why then? She needs superiority. To be on top of the world, to be different from other girls. In other words - 主人公. The only one in her game.

Raya Holidays!

I'm getting fatter. Jeez! What did I do?!

I miss my PS3. Haven't been touching it since the first day of vacation. I'm working on a seriously important piece of art for dA and I'm almost there... wait a second...

Yep, I managed the skin all right, what's left is the hair and attire. The hair just annoys me. Dunno when I'll finish this, but I'm sure it's nowhere soon. I always leave my pieces halfway. (eg, the Kune piece I almost finished, but can't upload due to outline probs)

This morning I almost forgot its AkuRoku Day! OMG, I didn't prepare anything! Like I said, I always leave my pieces around, so there's this fic I'm working on, but still couldn't get the plot straight... I'm pretty sure that this afternoon there'll be plenty of art and fics in the internet for fangirls (and boys alike)

I bought Assassin's Creed Renaissance last Sunday! Yay!

Finished it in less than 8 hours! Quicker than Taiwanese novels! I had fun imitating the Italian-accent dialog, then went to bed at 12 with a massive headache and nausea sensation. I woke up the next morning feeling fine, but can't forget what Bartolomeo and Caterina Sforza said in the books.

The reason I didn't get to touch the PlaySation was because I was re-watching Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood.

Other than that, I've been making GIFs and editing the screenshots for my Tumblr blog. Urr... it saddens me when Hughes died. Maria Ross is to blame and Envy got away... I'm currently at EP 31 or so, the plot thickens and everything becomes interesting at this point. There are plans for a final battle GIF, but I'll have to finish the whole story first before working on that. One example of my GIF (which I worked my ass off to finish another 5 of these):

The price of GIFs are tired eyes and sore shoulders... and postponed lunch, yeah. Damn I'm hungry.

一首歌和她的关系……

好久没打华文了！今天本来还想分享关于校长退休的事，看来不成了……
没想到《校园暴乱》完结后还有比爱情片/福建戏更劲吐血的连戏剧——《小牛爱情日记》（什么烂名字嘛！）
每当有人说小牛很‘CHEAP’时，我都会想起这首歌，可是因为当场没多少人听过，就做罢。现在有机会让大家听我的‘心中歌’！

那我们来玩个游戏吧！每一行歌词就算1分（重复的每分），最后算算这首歌是小牛的多少巴仙！

I pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy——1/2分
好啦，她很少穿裙子，可是裤子是短的……

Just like all of my thoughts they always get a little bit naughty——1分
不是little bit，是很naughty！

When I'm out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy——1分
她一直以来都是酱的啦～

Can't change the way I am, sexy naughty bitchy me——1分
讲她了还是不听的……

I'm the kind of girl that girls don't like——1分
我们对她放弃了。就是不喜欢她现在的性格。

I'm the kind that boys fantasize——1分
听说小牛有蛮多人喜欢的叻～

I'm the kind that your momma and your daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like——1分
我看这行有很多人会赞成吧。好难想她双亲会有什么反应……

I may seem unapproachable, but that's only to the boys who don't have a right approach or ride that makes a girl like me want to hop in and roll——0分
没有车。

People think it's intimidating when girl is cool with her sexuality——1/2分
小牛算‘性感’吧……

I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent——1/2分
有一半我是不明白的，可是以我的理解能力是说她跟我们这种‘宅女’简直是180度差别！

My mouth never takes a holiday——1分
从来没停过！（除非emo）

I always shock with the things I say——1/2分
有时会啦……

I was always the kid in school who turned up to each class 'bout an hour late——0分
迟也不会一个小时吧？

And when it came to the guys I'd lay, I'd always pick the ones who won't figure out that I am clearly a rebel to the idea of monogamy——1/2分
Monogamy——poligami的反义词，就是一次只有一个丈夫/妻子。（Novel Papa里有poligami)

I like all my shorts to be a little too shorty——1分
讲中！

Unlike all of my guys I like to tall them with money——1分
就是花太多钱买短裤吧……

I love all my nights to end a little bit nasty——暂时0分

总共是10分1/2，除与17分，乘100，等于……

61.7%！！！

我本来以为会是90%以上叻。不过超过50%也很严重了……